Day One - Dear Journal

Ha, I suddenly felt like I was 10 years old again and writing my secrets. No secrets here though, just some good old blogging about my feelings. As you know from my previous post, I am starting a reboot plan today. I'm not off to a great start. I ran to Sobeys last night to pick up a few things to tide me over until I can get a few more groceries after payday. I am more interested in the smoothie recipes, as most of those ingredients aren't all that expensive. I wasn't able to find tahini and I forgot all about getting lemons and honey. I'm supposed to be drinking this lemon elixir in the mornings, but that's hard to do if I don't have any lemons. I went ahead and used the ingredients that I did have and I made a smoothie. It wasn't good. I was missing the key ingredients so what I ended up with was a pretty tasteless drink. It wasn't horrible and I have another glass that I'll be likely having for supper, it just wasn't flavourful. So now I know that I need to have everything to give it that extra umph.

On top of all of that, it's pouring rain so I have the beginnings of a nasty sinus headache, I'm still feeling hungry and thoroughly unsatisfied and I forgot to give Laura her recess, so she's going to be pretty upset when she realizes she has nothing to eat. All in all, today is not off to a great start and to be completely and 100% honest, I am so incredibly skeptical right now of this program. Not the program itself, that seems to be quite solid, just my ability to follow it to the full. I already know I'm not going to be able to because what I need to pick up for the meals is not stuff that I would normally have, so that's adding onto my already high grocery bill. If you know anything about this province, you know how ridiculously expensive fresh produce is. However, I am not going to quit. I am going to stick with it and do the best I can with what I have. If nothing else, I want to feel less gross and sluggish so if I can accomplish that, then I've already won. Now, I'm going to go sweat my ass off and see if I can't get some happy endorphins flowing because I am anything but happy right now.


Update: Those of us that are participating in this program are encouraged to track what we eat and how we are feeling. Here's how I'm feeling this morning:

I am tired. Really, really tired. I slept like crap last night because I ate something that didn't agree with me so I was up and down to the bathroom quite frequently. I am also now hungry. I'm getting cranky because I'm hungry and I want to eat something that's not healthy. Thankfully, it's close to lunchtime so I'll be able to quell that feeling for awhile. I also haven't had my tea yet, not that that is going to give me energy or magically make me feel good but I'm cold and I jut enjoy a cup of tea in the mornings damnit.