I Must Confess

My eating has been a bit on the bad side this week. I've had nachos twice and mini bags of chips every. single. day. Sometimes twice a day (thanks Dad; goodbye self control, it's been nice knowing you). I must be pmsing early because I've been obsessed with food all week (hence the nachos). So, needless to say, today I am feeling less than stellar. Drinking lots of water today, trying to flush my system. My gallbladder is also threatening to rebel against my eating habits so I need to get it under control and fast.

With the exception of going out for wings tomorrow night, and timbits and half a muffin today, I will be hopping on the eating better, less snacking train this week. There goes my sanity, it's been nice knowing you. I predict at least one or two days of feeling a murderous rage that I of course can't act on. It also doesn't help that I need to get some groceries and when this happens, I start picking at random things that tend to not be the best choices (see above relating to timbits and half a muffin).

Today, I feel heavy. I hate this feeling. It tends to send me into a bit of a downward spiral and I'm really, really trying to not go there today. It's tough. Very tough. The negative thoughts are trying to weasel their way in. I hate the I allow food to control so much of me. I hate that sometimes, I can't just enjoy things and not worry about it after. To be honest, I think it's because I had a few more treats this week than I normally allow myself to have in the run of a week and that's setting in some MAJOR guilt, to the point where I had to go and try on two pairs of pants to see if I could still get them done up (yes, I could, they were pants that I couldn't get on when I first got them). They were a bit more snug then the last time I tried them, but I know if I get myself straightened out this week, they'll fit a little better.

And as always, I feel like I need to do fifty million laps around the house or wake up at 6am tomorrow morning and do a workout. Ugh, someone tell me that this stupid obsession will go away?! It's not a good start to the week people. Not a good start at all :(