Starting Over - UPDATED

How many times can a person start over? I have been saying for months that I want to do The Shred again. I started doing it a few weeks ago but whatever happened, I gave it up. I have a gorgeous green dress that is a tad on the snug side. It fits and I could wear it but it's a little tighter in the belly than I am comfortable with. The past week or so, I've been falling back into old habits and eating a bit more junk than usual, especially breads. Oh but I do love bread so much. I have noticed however, since giving it up, that when I do eat it, my stomach doesn't necessarily think that it's such a good idea. Today, I've been thinking way too much about exercising, to the point where I'm going to have to give in and do a workout. It doesn't happen often but it does happen and I figure, rather than obsessing about it, I might as well get it done and over with.

Ideally, I want to start at 6am again but I just can't seem to haul my arse out of bed to do it. Why is it so hard this time?! I've been using the excuse that my sleeping habits haven't been as good but in all reality, they are exactly the same as they were when I did this last April. So it's really all mostly in my head. Grr, it's so frustrating!!

Well, I'm off to start over at Day One........for the umpteenth time. Wish me luck.



Ok, so I've had a few minutes to kind of think and relax a little. My problem is that I allow myself to obsess over my weight and in turn, I don't allow myself to enjoy food. I eat something I love, track it and then feel horribly guilty about it. Now you have to realize that my eating habits have basically done a 360. I cut out a significant amount of junk food. I do still have treats and goodies. This week has been a little more, rewarding for lack of a better word, than usual. So now here I am today and I'm feeling guilty about it. This is when I start planning all the things I have to do. Usually, I shake it off and just go on about my day. Tomorrow is a new day right? Wrong, or at least that's where I am today. I'm allowing negative thoughts to take hold again and this needs to stop now because that's when destructive behaviour creeps on. It's a rewarding battle, don't get me wrong. But every once in awhile, it's really really frustrating. No, I won't be doing a workout today. I could easily throw in the disk and do it. But today, I'm going to enjoy what I love while at the same time, setting my alarm for 6am tomorrow morning ;)