Day Two - Some Kind of Record

I am on a roll here. I wasn't going to blog, I mean my life is pretty monotonous. I don't think people want to hear about how many times I've washed the dishes or swept the floor. The joys of working from home. And let's face it, I'm really not that interesting. Today I decided that I'm going to start putting a little more effort into being an adult. I like to use the excuse that I am home all the time to kind of be a bum. I spend 99% of my time in gym clothes (and no, I don't go to the gym. At all. Ever). However, I kind of tend to get into a bit of a slump when I do this and then I go all nuts when I put on real clothes because I get this idea that I'm putting on weight and then it just goes downhill from there (the struggle is real yo). At one point last year, I was on the verge of a breakdown and I had to text a friend that understood what I was going through so I could be talked down from starving myself (weight loss/gains/struggles are no joke and unless you have gone through it, it's really hard to understand). Anyway, thanks to a short back and forth conversation, I realized I was being ridiculous and while it was still nagging me as I went about my evening, I was able to let it go. I don't know if this person still reads my blog, but in case you do, I just want to say a huge and heartfelt thank you for being there for me that day and helping me through my mini crisis. But, I digress.........

Back to being an adult: I got dressed. Surprisingly, I feel a lot better than I was. So my endeavor is to try this daily. I'm not going to go all out or anything, but I do want to start putting a little more effort into my appearance during the day. So many beautiful clothes in my closet and I just am not wearing most of it because I feel like I need to be going somewhere or doing something in order to do that. I also decided to get back onto the workout train. I wasn't going to, I really really wasn't going to but it always makes my mind feel better, mostly because it quashes that nagging voice that starts to get a little louder and obsess about getting it done. Whether this is going to be done on a daily basis remains to be seen.



P.S. Props to those of you that go hard everyday. That is not me. I have the type of personality that gets addicted and obsessed with things very quickly, to the point that it becomes unhealthy. I had to decide a long time ago that while I was going to try to workout more, I wasn't going to beat myself up inside for the days that I missed or took off because I just don't feel it that day.

Now if you'll excuse me, this girl needs to go put some heat on her knees because they are hurting. It's not the "Oh that was an awesome workout" hurt. It's a "Why do you hate me?" hurt.