I'm Baaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!

Wow, it's been almost a year since my last post. Not much has changed. I have been able to maintain my weight loss (I do fluctuate a few pounds here and there which is normal). I'm not entirely sure what direction I want my blog to take now, if any. I was using it before to keep myself accountable however, I have reached a point now where I am so thoroughly comfortable with my body that I have completely stopped focusing on weight loss. I am still using the My Fitness Pal app and I just recently hit 500 consecutive log in days. I am still careful with what I eat, although I do have days where I kind of get really slack and then I start to feel icky so I go back. It's a cycle, it always will be.

There have been some mental changes for me as well. Before, I would really beat myself up if I fell off the wagon. I don't do that now, or at least I try really hard not to. I'm to the point where I realize that yes those days are going to happen but that's not important. What's important is to not let myself fall back into the cycle of giving up. I am able to look in the mirror and love what I see, in its entirety. I struggled with that for a long time, even while I was telling others to embrace themselves and their so called "flaws". But now, I love it all. My body tells a story, my story. I also don't endeavor to hide or camouflage things. My belly was always the biggest issue, a constant struggle between loving it for what it is and do everything in my power to not show it. Thanks to all the body positivity accounts that I follow on IG, I finally realized that it is what is. So I wore an outfit that I wouldn't have ever dared to wear, not even a year ago. I wore it in public. The world didn't stop turning, no one looked at me and pointed or laughed or drew attention to it. I felt absolutely incredible in it. That's what I have been striving for on this journey of mine. It's an amazing feeling when you finally accomplish a goal.

Anyway, back to the blog. I will keep it open for now. I may even start reviewing some of my outfits. I'm no fashion blogger but I enjoy clothing and I love being able to express my opinion on things that I have bought. It will continue to be a place for me to vent, or just express my thoughts as I wish. An online diary of sorts. Now if you'll excuse me, there's an entire dish of Nutella brownies just begging to be eaten.